Help Me!

Help Me!

Help me! ,To be where you are.
feel the way you feel
about life .
So my heavy heart of stone is transformed .
So I will never be alone.
the fear gets me ,
Deep down in the core of my soul .
I feel there is no return to normalcy.
My body is worn out,
Inside
Trapped in hell.
Wishing my tears would wash away
all the monsters
I hide inside my self.
To take away theses feelings
so I can be free..

Theses struggles

Theses daily struggles are
running rampant within her head
Every day theses feelings
intensify inside her
can’t take it any more
There is no way out
She ruined her only chance
by making too many bad chioces
the door cannot be opened anymore
So she has to live inside this hell
over come in her thoughts
confused in a world
so detached from reality
Craziness and sanity are tangled into an endless battle
All too much for her soul to handle
The only comfort,
Is that one day, she’ll be free .

Behind me

Some stand frightful
looking at the road ahead.
It is insane ,
With broken glass
and shattered lives
Concerned
Secluded
And lost
On where to go
Maybe start onto
another path that leads ahead,
But enemies are there,
and behind me,
Leaving only one way available,
I see the Fear in their hearts.
As I walk vigorously along with intense pain
down the same road
with broken glass and
There is where lives where shattered
The agony in my soul from that experiece
Of a path of footprints that now
follows behind me ………….

Spring day out in back yard

my bird tweety

boston springtime butterfly

The pain

In life there’s pain
There’s a pain you know of, but you cant explain
Then there is pain that you cant touch
But can feel,
A pain so severe
you think your gonna
go insane
you must be strong
For the pain that’s un heard of
Is the pain that’s
not seen
and so i just cant explain pain any other way
because i dont knew
When life 's pain will eva go away?

Undecided

Undecided
after a lifetime in doubt
So you go back in time
to when you used to smile
Rewind
to have everything back
But it’s to late
while your need to feel anything that's nice
Is still so strong
So you are running at a loss
inside the cocktail
Your drinking
In the night
For a love that’s not for you.
Maybe that's wrong, or
Maybe that's how
you accidentally : lost it all

where I would like to be ..

Your mentality

Your mentality
is living for your past instead of your future
Your fate is to only have complicated choices
Determined
but for all the wrong reasons
The motives you have
Are your reasons for your
distorted thoughts
At the same time
Your mind is continuously viewing a new novel like ending to believe in
And for you that Is less intense
Than living your life for real
But you would rather live a fantasy world
of being high

Snowy Trees

Snowy Trees

Snowy trees

mariana's birthday

Feb 6th 2009

Mariana's 6th birthday pictures